October 24, 2011

Update and prayer request

Hello readers.  I am sorry for being MIA for so long again.  Time and life get away from me and I never seem to be able to find the time to blog anymore.  I do read your blogs, mostly from my iPhone, and commenting is a pain from that.  Please know I'm still following you and your journeys, and sending you support when you need it. 

But, today I'm here to ask for the support. 

I had a consultation today with a very prominent fertility specialist here in St. Louis today.  The consultation itself was fine, he is wonderful, and I feel it's a good fit for me there.  However there were several things that I was told that concern me.

First of all, during the exam he found "at least one" polyp in my uterus.  He can't tell if there are more because my lining was almost double the thickness it should be.  The maximum they like it to be is between 12-14mm.  Mine is almost 20mm.  So, I have to have a D&C to remove the lining and polyp(s).  It could be as soon as next Wednesday.  They only do the surgery on Wednesdays.  I should hear something in the next couple of days.

Second of all, he wants me to have weight loss surgery.  He said given my age, history, previous treatments and other personal factors, he believes IVF is our only option for children.  And that at my weight I'm not a candidate.  He usually gives weight loss drugs first, but I can't take them due to a previous adverse reaction.  So he recommends weight loss surgery.  Soon. 

He is also running a LOT of bloodwork.  PCOS, thyroid, ovarian reserve, recurrent pregnancy loss, and a bunch more. 

Yes, I said recurrent pregnancy loss. 

Given the previous fertility treatments we did, and my family history of infertility and pregnancy loss, he believes I might have actually had at least one very early miscarriage and not known it.  So he wants me tested for the RPL panel. 

I'm pretty numb right now. 

I'm scared.  Of the surgeries, and of everything else.

All I can do is leave it in God's hands and pray...and ask you to do the same for me. 

I'll update when I can.

Love,

Me