March 23, 2010

What's not to be...

Hello fellow travelers! 

I would like to thank you all for your continued prayers since my request. 

Unfortunately, the situation didn't work out the way we were hoping.  I know that God's plan is bigger than us and what we know, but it's still a disappointment. 

Since it's not going to work out, I guess I can share it now.  About a month ago we heard through the grapevine of a 17 year old girl who was about 8 weeks pregnant at the time.  She knew she didn't want to keep the baby and didn't want to have an abortion.  We made it known to people that knew her that we were very interested in pursuing adoption and were more than willing to speak to her about possibly adopting her baby if that's the way she wanted to go.  I prayed every day that if this was the child that we were supposed to raise, that God would find a way to make it happen.  If this was the plan that God had for us, to adopt a child, that He would lay the path for us. 

Well...we just (as in while I was typing this post) got word that her aunt is going to take the baby. 

I tried, God did I try, to not get my hopes up.  I should have known better.  I should have known that nothing good will ever happen to us.  I should have known better than to think that something like this could really happen for us.  For me. 

I had a lot more to post about, but honestly I don't feel much like talking now that I've gotten this news.